My Ascian Journey - Chapter 51: 2025, year of Rebirth and renewal, Pokemon - ffxiv overlap in anime and TK is back temporarily. (jan-feb-mar)
- Ayane Firebird
- Sep 10
- 77 min read
finally i got this chapter out, title says all.
Jan 5th
Zio: Sorry again I'm so silent
My health keeps getting worse and with family issues on top of that and I just don't have much energy to do anything other than get through each day.
But I am reading things and hopefully soon I'll be on the road to recovery
Me: Thank you. Atleast you give an update. TK don't even reply on a dm, and jezzah well yeah hardly replies. Sometimes she does, but yeah.
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Jan 8th
So i was ripping a boosterbox (stellar crown). And tried my own abilities for a change. This is probably the most of the box and got 13 packs left.
i opened so more, 8 sealed packs left which I keep unopened .this is what i got in total
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Jan 11th
ok so i can watch a screen a bit more today. and finished the biggest stress point that needed to be done before the end of the month.
after a seizure on Nov 25th i recovered already too slowly. followed my huge amount of stress to deliver packages from my webstore on time for the 2 holidays (Sinterklaas on Dec 5th and Christmas) after Sinterklaas i already started to have more tiny seizures of exhaustion that were stopped by a special nosespray. until i ended up using it 2 weeks in a row at the time after my Bday on the 16th which is bad. i was able to get pills and sleeping pills. but the first pills didn't do much. i just took more of the same as i was already using Neu b'calmed but max dose divided in 3 times during the night and my epileptic medication, there was space to take more (neurologist said that) so i did. this mostly stopped the small seizures. but i still need the nosespray to knock me out so i could sleep. (sleeping problems since the seizure from Nov 25th btw).
i finally got good sleeping pills. but like as not how the pills are supposed to be working my body cutts the effectiveness by 4x. so instead to sleep 16 hours. it's only 4 now. this happened after the 3rd intake.
now i have non left for tonight......
i had no Christmas or new years eve. i was suffering bad. and technically classified to have a burnout.
Oh yeah Elidibus stayed with me constantly since Dec 14th till January 2nd.
He made sure others could do his work. and after the 2nd he could leave work whenever i really needed him like calming my eyes and head.
well this was my screen time. as i am getting tired.
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Jan 24th
Transcribed voice message:
I always told my ex I got Lahabrea vibes over him. And now I know why.
Because of my sleeping problems and my matrass became useless, I am lying in a pit. So I started lying on the other mattress where my ex is on the bed when he is away. And I started to dream…as I sleep a week now on his mattress about a old version of him with short hair. I need to make a note that he has long hair now.
So I dream about his old self ( you already getting it I take it?). his old self pestering me in my dreams. Now I had a dream this morning that I saw it through that it was not my real ex. So in this dream his false self laid next to me in bed and the body pillow was somehow gone. And I am very certain it was not Elidibus, I am very certain about that because I will tell in a minute. So that “guy” laid next to me. And I was like
Me: what are you doing here?!
This is the 3rd time I dreamed about this idiot, and I checked his hair.
Me: it’s short hair, you are not the Real one, in the name of God, Jesus and the holy spirit Get THE Fuck Out Of My House!
I throwed him literally out as he was as light as a feather.
I went to my computer and he did thing on there. All programs were gone. Then the doorbell rang. And open the front door. He was standing there again.
Me: what have you done to my computer?!!!
Fake ex: what do you mean what I did to your computer ( in a trash talking down way)
Me: all my programs are gone!!! Go away you ASS!
And then he walked away and he impersonated my ex how he looks now in RL but the ponytail was different. And the hair was almost to his ass, which he doesn’t have. And the elastic hair band was a very loose white one. While in reality he has a tight black one.
Me: oh shit is he gonna walk through the backdoor. Because my backdoor was open and the fench door aswell. So I ran up the stairs to grab my phone to call 112 (dutch version of 911). And when I ran down about to call, he was already standing in the door of the living room and the hallway. And then the dream ended.
So I told this dream to my ex. And he said in the old year 2024 dec 31st, he officially left his old self behind him and that became it’s own entity. Some kind of arcane entity that is now pestering my in my dreams for as long I am lying on that matrass. So we need to sage everything in here. And this is like Lahabrea leaving his old self behind without splitting his soul in this case. So I am like “WTF?!”
I mean I already had Lahabrea vibes over him for some reason for quite some time already. But he needs to work with Lahabrea, they will probably understand eachother a lot.
( Eli says yes while typing this up)
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Jan 28th
Omfg after my bioresonant treatment. Driving back while it rained, wind, engine running created a white noise effect.
That created a tune with piano. And later singing.Finally after an hour, arriving to stop by for a quick dinner. I figured out it must be a final fantasy song.
Couldn't find it at first. Until when driving back home, i hummed some Japanese words (not the correct ones) but i made me realize it was a Japanese song. i searched "japanese final Fantasy songs". First hit with this https://youtu.be/UH5IUXuMuTg?si=CfWcorA0Cw3478Ws
And its the correct one
And yes Elidibus was with me.
let say i completely forgot about this song as i never played 10. Only 10-2 halfway (stuck forever)
Last part of the song Official lyrics translation:
Suteki Da Ne
Being together, all alone
walking hand in hand.
And I want to go to your city
To your home, into your arms.
To feel your face
The touch of memory
And now that I awake
As from a dream.
I'm sobbing rn. He sent this.
He want to do this. ..
I haven't played 10 as i said. Tidus was sorta dead? ......right?
How .....i have no words.
Not long after https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fWlZ3FZWZ4 I come across this song. randomly via google articles. Lady Gaga, Bruno Mars - Die With A Smile (Official Music Video)
Those lyrics man. Eli what are you doing?
I never click on those music adds, yet alone lady gaga. It was the name of the song " die with a smile" that made me click.
Ya know some other Ascian ....Emet did that in the game after all,
reaction of a friend of mine: “Hmm that's nice and very specific”
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Feb 1st
i just stumped on this vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K8bWYsVI-aY
and it's exactly what Aidenin said a few months ago. "game lore wise it will be Clive who survived and wrote the book. But in reality we all died as we were merged with the Source. that's why they choose an open end"
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Feb 8th (update on jezzah’s life)
Me: @Jezzah how is life atm?
Jezzah: Pretty chill actually
Me: oh, are you still at the shelter or do you have a house now?
Jezzah: Been living with roommates for a while now. Since I think since September.
Me: ohhh that's good news. are you able to practice spiritual stuffs? if not i don't mind. just curious
Jezzah: We're getting there
Me: ah, do you still have a connection with Emet? or is that what you meant with "we"
Jezzah: no, I have to reconnect but I also have no way of playing FFXIV atm.
Me: oh right your laptop
Jezzah: yerp
Me: i hope you can get a good one so you can play again
Jezzah: Same
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Feb 9th
watching the newest pokemon horizons episode. in the past. Gibeon (ancient Emet XD) and Lucius (Azem) were best friends. and Lucius betrayed Gibeon (apparently, still watching atm).
erum Azem defecting the Convocation much?
oh yeah Gibeon is suppose to be dead. but he remained alive due to the Rakurium crystal......sounds like Ascian hahaha
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Feb 14th
So i bought 4 Pokemon terastal festival boxes. and i asked Eli to get me some SAR (secret art rare) eeveelutions.
the first box didn't had them and i was like. I probably don't get them right....
Second box. Flareon en 4th box Glaceon. Tysm Eli
And this arrived directly after unpacking the previous ones. I took a gamble with loose packs on Catawiki. Because this set is mappable nobody recommends to buy loose packs. Well i bought 10 packs once from 1 seller and had 2 SAR. so that seller was legit.
So i won 30 packs.
Got 5 SAR 6 a-spec and a masterball flareon
(that’s some unique way for a valentines present XD)
Yes wasted too much money on this roughly 80€ per 10 packs (got 80 packs in total.... didn't picture every SAR though). But the pulling is just the experience of getting those eeveelutions.
spending way too much money already anyway. revamping bedroom plus New bed that comes in april. need to buy a car ffs hopefully before a con halfway march....
And a friend is gonna print me the phoenix of ff16. So yeah. whatever lol apparently money doesn’t exist this XD.
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Feb 15th
Yesterday I had most of the night dreams about/with Lahabrea. while walking up twice en laying awake for 2 hours the dream just continued. oh yeah i was in ancient robes with my own Convocation mask. Lahabrea as ancient
unfortunately i dont remember the second one. I have some vague recollection he told some details of the msq when he would come back.
In the first dream there was leaked story board sketches with him in the msq. And him (ancient) walking past yshtola.
Third dream was some wild adventure defeating/killing shit in my old neighbourhood where i grew up as a child and teenager.
I will try to typ it up later. i voice recorded it because i was too tired to write
Today/last night Aidenin (Joshua rosfield) was in the picture i often was him or cosplayed him.
the dream after some odd things about solus Emet at 12yo age.
and at the end it happened to be a movie and the adult version told some things which i dont remember.
When i woke up i asked Eli when did Emet took over solus. It was at 20 years of age. And 4 months later he became Emperor. So 12yo solus Emet never was a thing.
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Feb 17th
Ok so. End of Nov my dad's van broke while we had a convention. We were luckily my ex's parents were away to America to visit their newborn second grandson (our son is the first one).
So we were able to use their car to continue with the convention.
but yeah my dad didn't want to buy another car/van for his work because he is gonna retire this year.
which i can understand.
But so Eli said in Dec i would get a car to drive in for the conventions in March and beyond. be it my own purchase or my dad. my mom offered about end of January to look for a car for me, since she lives next to a garage who are selling cars aswell.
but last week i asked Eli if i would still get a car before Hmia (heroes made in Asia).
he wasn't entirely sure, but maybe that was my own mind intervening. because i asked who would find the car, myself, my dad or my mom, he said my mom. Now today. Guess what. My mom found a car. with a hook to pull the trailer. only 134k KM for a car from 2012.
after some questions asking the company via my mom. I quickly decided to take the car.
will be delivered next week.
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Feb 23rd
I swear to god is they ever gonna do a timeskip in ffxiv where the twins have partners and kids of their own and 1 is called Olivier. Then i know where they got it from. The last name of this captain looks similar to leveilleur.
Book of my ex btw. Eli confirmed Sam survived the storm whereby originally said he died.
So far Eli once told my ex he is a reincarnation of the quarter master of Sam Bellamy.
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ok so i doing a lot better the past few days. and i tried a duty support dungeon yesterday and with little breaks of closing my yes for a couple of minute helped to finish it. today i tried a trial with duty support. and that went splendidly.
Eli was right that by the time the patch would release i would be able to play again.
now i just hope that the week before i wont get a seizure after the con....just like last time in november...
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Feb 24th
Ok so. because the car is on my name. and my ex not being registered on my address. There would be problems for getting a car insurance.
Eli said yesterday i just need to call them and they will make an exception because of my epilepsy under medical reasons.
so i called the bank whereby i have my insurances running.
and they needed to discuss that with the insurance company.
5-10 min was already called back. and they made an exception but with rules, no claim-free years accrued.
and only he can drive the Car and no one else. and only when i am with him during the car drive. Which isn't a problem because with conventions we will be together anyway.
Today I also noticed the ignore button on discord for dm’s. I am not ammussed as TK just did that after giving her a free course that I paid for and I passed down to her. Really ungrateful . I didn’t even got a thank you.
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Feb 26th
Remember I wrote about that Lee Harris knew about the Fourteen?
This is what I got back on email finally after subbing their program
“My apologies Ayane
I meant to type "we do not" know of the fourteen.
I am so sorry that my email was sent in error. Would you like me to refund your Portal payment and cancel your subscription.
Lee cannot answer this because he does not know of the fourteen and cannot answer emails regarding questions of this nature.
Again, my sincere apologies.
Best, Meredith
Customer Service Lee Harris Energy “
The most hurtful thing about it is that back then I tried to verify asking if she didn’t meant to say “we do not” but never got a reply back on that one.but Elidibus said the Z’s definitely know about the Convocation but they haven’t channeled that through Lee yet.
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Mar 1st
I couldn't resist buying more.
I asked for Eli for SAR umbreon, espeon, sylveon, leafeon, eevee. In that order.
I got espeon and leafeon!
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Mar 3rd
The fact that they changed the names of the FFXVI characters is a result of subconscious channeling.
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Mar 4th
I won packs from catawiki. I asked Eli for umbreon, sylveon and eevee.
alas no Umbreon but very happy with the other 2!
But i am done buying packs i think . Gonna sell some complete base sets first. I got atleast 4 by now ....i think haha maybe need to buy a few loose cheap ex cards but hey if i can sell those sets for 50€ each then i have 200 back already.
( I eventually bought Umbreon loose on Cardmarket not long after)
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Mar 8th
So some interesting things my ex told me yesterday.
skinWalkers capture soul of animals to get super Strength.....
Doesn't that sound heavily familiar with the regulators in DT?! the regulator has a feral soul in it for super powers of that animal/monster.
DT gets darker and darker the more you come to know.
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Oh yeah before i forget.
Elidibus was like a substitute Jesus on Etheirys.
Not Yeshua himself lol.
my ex Discoverd quite a lot of things that both Eli and Jesus did or stood for.
that makes Venat/Hydaelyn mother Mary.......which matches a lot tbh!
If those 3 days of darkness is gonna happen and mother Mary would talk to us all, the ones that listen will advance in spiritual knowledge and powers. It is similar to Venat as Hydaelyn creating warriors of light with the echo.
3 days of darkness explained by channeler:
Note on those 3 days: currently heavy solar flares are coming from the sun as of March 21st. if strong enough it will black out the entire world. This is the most interesting vid I can find for explanations: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=redsq8Ier_o
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Mar 9th
watching newest pokemon episode. the rakurium is not from the planet, but outer space. heart of sabik lol. hahahah Ameth joined the good side at rakua.
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must watch https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQp-DRpR5EU
about that solar flash.
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Mar 11th
Is just wanna say this. This year is the year of renewal and Rebirth. Atm i decided to revamp my house (bedroom and stock room of my ex) and sort out all the junk etc. i started to feel a bit better every week. Ofcourse in combination with the bio resonance Therapy.
the small room that my ex bombarded with is junk is done and clean. All his remaining shit is in the shack now. Which my mom and I did earlier for this purpose.
Now stuff of my bedroom can go to the small room and then my bedroom can be pimped as i never did anything with it when i came to live here almost 8 years ago......(Where the hell did those years go? Feels like 5y rather)
Also my computer closet needs replacement, mostly because my ringneck ysayle has mental breeding season issues and destroys everything. all my shipping boxes needed to go away from my workspace. She was biting them to confetti.
But now every box is gone, she tries to get into the upper plank above my monitor to throw out all the stuff and bite in every piece of paper and cardboard.
So i need a new closet with doors.....
further because of sorting things out and useless carton boxes. I had a huge pile of cardboard boxes (flat) in my garden.
Today i was luckily to use the paper container from the new neighbour lady. and rest that didn't fit in mine or hers i throwed in someone else's containers that were already on the side of the road.
So i got ridd of everything. Whoo hoo.
The reason I tell this is I have secretly the idea, this meant to happen for Eli's arrival in 4-5 years? Maybe wishful Thinking to find a reason behind it. Though so many things start to fall in place.
when i removed every shipping box also away from the window. I noticed the crack in my window was so much worse that i had to call the glass repair man. I wouldn' t have called if I didn't have to remove the boxes!
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Mar 12th
Having the most hilarious conversation in whatsapp about Depp first being Emet selch is now Lahabrea. He looks like in-between now. Before Lahabrea got grey hairs XD
And his ex would be Athena. Then he can roast her even more XD.
Some pandaemonium RL series pls!
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Additional info march 24th, I just read he got it cut to Solus Emet style again some months ago. But I wonder why, he could have used his long hair for Jack sparrow.
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Mar 13th
I didn't know when the next live letter was until just now.
Yesterday i asked Eli when the patch would drop. He said the 25th.
and since the LL is tomorrow, it will be the 25th.
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so yesterday meditation resulted in actual seeing things. a golden ring turning around. a antique clock going very fast forward, multiple angels flying upward and merging in to 1 being and changed into the phoenix and i said "that me!" and gained chills all over (means it's true) could those have represent my shards? and i saw the (Azem) Key in FFXIV will be used to go to the 4th shard in later expansion. i liteally saw that key and asked Eli if it will be used to go to other shards, namely the 4th. he said yes.
also a little note on this vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wUTKqH0SRFY&list=WL&index=49
the Convocation (mainly the unsundered) were asked to join the galactic federation. but they declined. they want to help man kind in their own way.
and i had a long dream being an alien amoung humans. though i didn;t look much different. but yeah i am an alien technically speaking.
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Mar 15th
ancient Emet in elpis scene pokemon variant, sacrifcing soulblaze (memory in ffxiv) to make sure liko can defeat zygarde (and Azem/us in ffxiv make sure to survive the memory alteration)
omg next week is last episode. though i know it continues with a new story including possible time skip as liko is older
garlemald pokeball XD
terapagos doing minfillia again to purify the rakua crystal
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Mar 20th
i just had the session with a practitioner Stephanie. i didn't came prepared with questions so i had her tell the things she channeled at first. then i asked if it will still happen at the end of this decade that Elidibus and the 2 others will come here physically. ( just called them the council i channel.) and she said it will. she also said i was a council member (which i know and is true) and she confirmed the leader being very close to me. well ya i know lol. but it's nice to see it get channeled without telling in front.
when she got out i told her some things about the council and my home planet and said what they are probably gonna do here. and that part resonated with her what she got through what will happen around that time.
then i had a question about what she talked about during the channeling, and she got back in for a a couple of minutes and it came down i need to pick up the speaking through voice channeling again. ( i took a break because of my condition in dec, jan en feb). but currently after a convention i had last weekend i am not very stable. so it will need to wait a bit longer.
the whole session is recorded and i will transcribe it
(3h later) nvm i got the transcript from her already.
Here is the session:
Stephanie: Great. Well, would you like me to tap in, or would you like to ask a question first?
Ayane: Yeah, I thought you were just gonna channel things. I didn’t really prepared questions
Stephanie: I can just tap in and Just see what they say.
Ayane: Yeah, just tap in, and maybe the questions will pop up
Stephanie: Well, exactly. Yeah. Okay. Great. Okay. So I'm gonna ask you to take a few deep breaths in 5 big, deep breaths in as I try and connect to your energy. just another few deep breaths, and being really open to hearing what they have to say, your guides have to say.We are feeling a little bit of a disconnection as we enter into your energy field.
You are feeling a little bit lost and a little bit worried about your your life, your finances, and your creative pursuits.We are going to help you with this through healing. Through this session, as well as many answers.We feel as if you have come to us at a time where you are looking for a little bit of a boost, a pep in your step. a little bit of a creative life force, energy needs to be allowed run through you. You are so loved by those around you. We see a lot of guides in your energy field, who have come to us to bring us some messages of love, of forgiveness, of kindness, of gratitude.
You have overcome a great deal and it is an honor to help you become a brighter light for those who have dealt with your situation. It is a little difficult at this particular point, to pinpoint you in the exact direction, as you are flowing through life with a grander plan at play, and it will be revealed to you step by step. You feel as if you are growing into a new person, and we are pleased to see this progress being amplified and being more open to this energy. You wonder if you should do more, Do more to help this growth. And we say this. you have become strong in yourself, and you have become your own best friend. You are your greatest strength, your greatest friend, your greatest loved one, and you do not need to look so much for outside help, validation, curriculums, different exercises. You have the answers within yourself. and we feel as if you are going to learn a lot over the coming days when you become a little stronger. for you are receiving some healing energies in the your energy field right now, which is helping you to become stronger.
We like that you would like to listen and learn more. We like that. You are here to learn. We like that. You have no preconceived notions over what you have to do next. We like that. You are so open. It is actually in your favor to remain this way over the coming weeks . It is going to open you up to some opportunities that are going to be very beneficial for you.We are trying to see if you would like to do something now to enter into your highest self. or if it is best for you to allow some momentary grieving of the old self. It is a little like there is a back and forth, and a pull and a dimension jumping sort of energy going on right now. and your guides are sitting with us, and they feel as if you are creating this, and you would like to continue to do this until you're strong enough to hold the energy of the new self. The new self is going to emerge and become the strongest version that you will have ever experienced before. This version holds a mirror. the people who you will help and helps them see how to grow and do what you have done.You have become a strong person, a person with decent morals, viewpoints, ethics. a person who believes in what they believe. and who does not allow room for nonsense and for people to question.
It is who you are and what you do with that you feel as if this is a little as if people are behind, and you were going to be able to help them take a leap forward. It is a great pleasure to see you today.
We know that you may have some questions if you would like to ask us, or if you would like for us to keep going.
Ayane: Yeah, I have a question. I write a lot about my home planet as I am a channeler myself, conscious Channeler must say. and one of the council members.Well, one actually 3. But the leader will come 1st with via [redacted], and firstly, it was said, at the end of this decade is that still the same date, like 2028, or 2029, 30?
Stephanie: Your question is just to make sure we understand.
Ayane: when this leader of the Council, still comes at the end of this decade via [redacted]
Stephanie: We allow the human mind of Stephanie to catch up while we come to you to give you clarity. it is a new endeavor that you are taking on. You are going to guide people into the new earth. You are going to feel as if you are opening a portal. And it is a big work, big planetary work job.
The Council that you work with have a purpose. And this purpose is to remind people that they are worthy of love and support. And this purpose is a purpose that helps people move forward when they know they are loved. It is our understanding that you will become the leader of this purpose on planet Earth. which is to say, this council must enter in to the earth's stratosphere by 2030. In this case the earth is going to shaking a little. as the vibration of this council is of a high high calibration.
If people are not ready, this will backfire. It is your job to have people who have people prepared. It is as if this portal is best way we can describe it Of human understanding. We cannot really put into words, but this portal is a gateway to the new worlds. There are many different gateways with many different functions. Some people will go through the light in a way that they have healed from pain. Some people will go through with a focus on joy and laughter. Some people will go through with a focus on peace. It is your Council's purpose to focus on worth, self-worth and worthiness, self love. and to go through with complete confidence in people's self. So for the moment they are guiding you to focus on self compassion. As there is a quarter left to be healed, so you have healed self love, self-worth.
You know your strength. You know who you are. You know that you are becoming the best version of yourself. You know 99% of the path that you're meant to know. You know why you're here, you know who you are. You know, things, that many people don't know. You just need to work on understanding yourself. Compassion for yourself, compassion for the parts of you that haven't caught up yet. Compassion for the parts of you that are still resisting this new dimension. And when you heal this it is going to feel a lot easier, and it's going to flow a lot better. So this is why we talk about the back and forth, because it is a part of the process. But we don't see this lasting too much longer. And then, once you enter into this new, complete, new self. you're going to be able to bring people together to enable this connection with your council on earth, so that the people may be ready for this portal door, which will open
Ayane: ummm. Okay. Sorry. I don't have any questions at the moment.
Stephanie: Are happy to continue
Ayane: Yes, please continue.
Stephanie: It is a such a pleasure to work with someone who is so open as we are usually directed where to go.There is a feather of love being placed in your energy field, and it is going to grow wings, and we are sure that you are going to experience the bliss on this planet that many will are are chasing, and you have it in you to experience true bliss. You feel a little concerned about. If you feel concerned about things that do not concern you. Really, the things that feel difficult things blocks. We say this. it's going to get easier. It is going to become even more apparent what this mission is that you have been set to do, and it is going to feel as if you have known this all along, and that you're just waking up to it.and we know that there are a little bit of a little hesitation in your energy field right now about why you chose this, and why this is happening, and why so many different elements. And why would you want to even come here to do this, and we know you have the answers, but we know that there can be a hesitation sometime, and we want to say to you this, it is a little like learning to teach a child or a child learning to ride a bicycle. The bicycle is you, and it can be a little rickety, and it can be a little bit difficult to balance at first, and sometimes you need a bit of help, someone to hold it, and sometimes you're able to balance on your own. It will eventually feel like you are just riding the bicycle smoothly. so allow the imbalances, for now, this is what your guides want you to do, and to continue to feel this getting smoother.
You're not far away from getting to the core of your soul contract. We know you know about future plans. But there is a time where every soul gets to where they click, and this clicking is is pre-planned this this moment of being able to see the path ahead without any blurry like. It's like taking. It's like putting the right glasses on like you. You don't have to. It's not so blurry anymore. It's just completely clear. Not everyone knows exactly what their role in life is. But you're able to see the path, the parts that you need to see with no block, nothing in the way. And at this point is coming to you. We see you learning a little more in the coming weeks. We see you trying to implement something in the next year, and we see you rising to the top of your field in 3 to 4 years.
In 3 to 4 years. It is going to feel like you have almost peaked, but it won't be the peak. It is the very top of the mountain. And it is a time of gratitude, and it is at that point you will be called to take on a little more to help create this synergy between earth and galactic beings in many dimensions, and just not just beyond your council, to the work of your council is like A is it's a beautiful collective of beings that they really really care about this planet, and they are sure that this work needs to be done, and they are very proud of you. because not every council has a member on earth. and not Every council has a member on earth that cooperates so they are very lucky to have you. They like what you're doing. They like what they see.They watch you all the time. You have a particular close friend in this council. You have connect very closely with this one. You want to show them what you're doing. You communicate back subconsciously and consciously. In your subconscious storage brain there are codes being sent back, and these codes allow them to learn a little bit more about the planet, and then they send more back to you and help you decipher what to do. So there's a there's a very beautiful synergy and co-creation happening, and when you communicate back with them you show them that what it is on earth is a little different to what we think it is. And this connection is vital. And because if there are so many souls getting lost here, and we see them really struggling and suffering, and we are trying to bring them back in alignment. And these people, like like you and soul of Stephanie are helping connect back so that you are, and so that we learn more so that our methods could be more successful.
And because it hasn't worked so well without these connections, these are the most powerful techniques on the planet right now, and they are new and they are. They are. It hasn't been done exactly this way before, and you are feeling like it is a challenge to connect with them sometimes. and so they would like to address this. So they want to say to you that it is always there, it is always open. Sometimes the connection becomes a little interfered with when other frequencies enter. and these frequencies are low. Vibe energies and when they are removed they become a little, they obviously interfere with this connection. within this space. The energies remain stuck. We, of course, encourage you to remove them. If this is becoming too difficult and you would like another way in. you do not have to go through this open channel. There are other ways to get around this obstacle. And so here are one of them. You can actually try listening to your own voice. even if you know it's not theirs, and you can keep going by channeling different versions of yourself. And so the 1st one that may come out may be a low vibration version. but once it has set its piece and you can write it down, you can record, or you can just let it go. Stop and continue with a higher, and ask for a higher version, and continue, with this each time will be different, but we would see 5 times as being a reasonable amount to do this to get to your highest self.
When you get to your higher self you will know the message will be very loving, and you will know that this is your voice, your true self. Once this is activated, you will become at a level equal to your guides, and you will be able to channel them, or channel your highest self, whichever they will both have the answers. So it is not that you always have to remove the frequencies. It is okay to allow the the wrong voices to come through for the right voices to eventually enter into your field, and we have another bit of advice for you, sit with feelings of pain. They are your friend, for you know how to conquer them. The pain is a indication that you are either on the wrong path. and you have fallen off a bit, and you need to get back to yourself. or it is an indication that there is something further to be healed, that is, energy that is useful, to be able to create something even greater out of it. When you sit in your pain, you become a master on earth, you become a powerful Creator In healing your pain you show others it's possible. and in listening to your pain you have another way of communicating with your guides, as they are showing you. What you were doing is not working, and you need to try something else deciphering. It is a human practice which you will and are learning to decipher.
There is another message coming through from your guides.You are wondering which path to take. There are a few choices ahead of you. There is one which involves learning more. There is another that involves taking what you've learned and making something new. There is some other convoluted messages, versions of either of these, but they have now divided these into 2 for us. So we are going to suggest the following, with your guides, permission, continue down the path of creation. This means you need to create more. We believe you've learned enough. We're asking you to push the study down. You have done more than your fair share of research. It's time to give your soul the benefits of creation. Your gift is doing something new, and we would like for you to do more of this. We feel as if you are allowed to lead Now. You've done so much. It is your turn to show people the way. So we encourage you to spend the next 3 to 6 weeks. a little bit of learning, a little bit of deciding what you would like to to create, and we would like to suggest that you use this time wisely smarsh working. Follow your passion, and allow in guidance from your guides. We see your connection with your guides enhancing. and we see you being able to connect with them more frequently.We also see a new wave of energy and hope entering into your energy field. and we know that you are going to do us, your guides. and many watching in the universe proud. And we leave you with some final words.
It is okay to be you. It is okay to allow the different versions of you catch up. and it is okay to process in your own time. You are on track. You are following everything, and you have become a wonderful, wonderful leader here on earth, and we have great hope for you
Ayane: That was certainly interesting.
Ayane: Do you also hear when you channel this, what what they say
Stephanie: Yeah, I can. I can hear it. Yeah, I can. I can. I don't know where it's going, but I can hear, can hear what they're saying. Yeah, yeah.
Ayane: Yes. Well, yeah, indeed, I am one of the council members. and they your council said it was one very close friend was is actually my yeah, I would say that we were lovers once. In previous lifetimes.
Stephanie: yea
Ayane: So on my home planet. So yeah, that is a little bit closer than just a friend. But the other 2 strongest members are. Yeah, also very close. That's more like they were mentors back then of the same council. But yeah, I really wonder about the coming 6 weeks I would need to create, though. I have no idea. I only know that I continue writing my experience with the council and information I get them from my home planet. And yeah. as it is the most interesting which you won't expect. But like 76% of it is portrayed in a video game
Stephanie: Okay, is that how you got it?
Ayane: Yeah. And then I will get information if that part of the game really happened or not, as it is a continuous game going onward forever, probably, and then I can just ask if that really happened, or it happened differently. And that sort of thing. So that's really interesting. yeah, I come from the planet myself. So yeah, it's yeah, that's mainly what I write about, though
Stephanie: Did you, What they said about 2030. The portal is that kind of what you had pictured is that, does that make, Did that make sense to you?
Ayane: Well, another practitioner said That's the council member that is a lover to me is would come at the end of this decade. So 28,29, most likely, and to help mankind to progress and [redacted]. I don't know how they're gonna do that. But It's very interesting.
Stephanie: that aligns with my timelines of 2030, and I don't. I don't know as much as what's gonna happen, but I know they want to lead. And yeah, create something.
Ayane: Yeah, exactly. And they said, I know the leader. My lover, is going to {redacted]. So far, I know.
Staphanie: That is crazy,
Ayane: and it's i really can't wait to see them physically. So many players of that game are probably going to declare me crazy, as they still do. But I don't care then anymore, you know, that's you know how much is the chance to even meet (fingerquotes) “video game characters” in real life. ahahhaha
Yeah. And I hope they get the job done. Obviously,
Stephanie: Yeah. Well, that aligns with what I know. I didn't know. Other people knew that a lot of that aligned with the timeline I was working towards as well with my guide. So yeah.
would definitely Stephanie interesting time
Ayane: Yeah, yeah. But it seems that it's still the same timeline that they would come the end of this decade
Stephanie: It by 2030. Yeah, which is soon
Ayane: Yes, I'm really looking forward to that.
Stephanie: (laughs)
Ayane: yeah, I did pop up a message during the channeling. But yeah. it was what do you mean with what to create in the coming 6 weeks? And can you tell the options?
Stephanie: I can try going once more. I told that with the end.
Ayane: the zoom call will end in 6 min. But yeah.
Stephanie: No, it's okay. Yeah. I'll I'll go in once more now and see if I can connect. So just because I've been disconnected there if you can. Just really takes good few deep breaths in. Just so I can really connect. We see a little bit of creation being useful for this. So asit is better to create than to learn in this case. And so it does not really matter what you create. But we would like to see you creating more yourself. And by this we mean. we would like for you to become someone who brings things to people. And this is important for your life in 3 years time, and so we are seeing it being useful to start. Now
let us fill in some more blanks. It is a new time on this planet. and it is a time of great progression. and in order to disrupt, you need to create Without this, the same thing keeps happening, the same energies keep appearing the same. the same energies appear, the same cycles repeat. So in order to really disrupt and shake up this planet. We want you to create yourself from your heart. What this looks like can be very different to what you may have once pictured. We see you in the future, showing people a new way of life. And we see you using different skills for this. these skills can include working with your mind to manipulate energy.They can also include timeline jumping shape shifting time manipulation, holding space for others as they learn to tap into their great energy fields. It is beyond the conventional, beyond the normal things that people have learned. So we are seeing a course that says something like time, energy manipulation, time warping, warping energy and time to make it work. For you see, these are skills the human race do not know they have. And so we want you to show them that it's possible. And what. Your particular gift is you can create a picture of this through your imagination and through your work to date.
So we are going to ask you to think on a few things over the coming weeks. Is this enough to show people new ways of living, or would you prefer to? Help them get to a new dimension? It is your choice. We want them to learn the skills. You may want to take them. to different dimensions, dimension hopping. This is your gift, and we would like you to think about this over the coming weeks.We know that you have an ability to date to hop from dimension to dimension. Are we also seeing you being able to make things move. So we would like you to use use the skills you have to teach people to do how to do this. And you are going to be able to do this more and more often. these skills, because you have tapped into a bigger energy force at play. We also, seeing you being able to learn more about this future. So we are happy for you to continue to study this and receive information about the future of earth. It is useful to be able to show people where they are going, because most of Earth is going to be blindsided by this. So you will have a few following, who will know what's happening. But you may lure them in with promise of skills that will enhance their life. you see, not. Everyone will want to go straight to this end goal, and we like that. You feel you can access your guides through the medium of gaming. We also suggest that you work with them through many means, including learning how to channel in new ways. We would like you to learn to channel. Oh, your friend, humans may call soulmate in a special way, and this way could involve allowing this so to come through you and to speak through you. and you do not need to do anything for this, only allow it to happen. It is always best to start with the one that you are closest to, and and we also say this it is. It's going to be a rocky time for those on this planet. And we want you to remember that there are others who suffer with this change. and they need some consoling, and it may be beneficial for you to be able to console them. as many are going to resist this change, and with the healing they may become more open. And it is It is all going to plan, and it is pretty clear you are feeling the presence of your guides. and that they were gonna come work more and more and more, close to you and finally. we say it's all in hand.
Ayane: okay hehe
Stephanie: Does that make more sense than the next? The creation
Ayane: Yeah, yeah, it does. I mean, I can already. Let him speak to me. But I need to. I can already let him speak through me. But it has been a while since I done that successfully. So so technically, you're saying I need to pick that up again
Stephanie: The language you know, isn't. But the meaning. Yeah, yeah, just just take what resonates with the meaning. If the language kind of doesn't translate. That's just probably my human mind. Yeah.
Ayane: Okay, yeah, yeah. I stopped doing that a bit, because I really had a severe crashed down in December and January, like, it was the symptoms of a heavy burnout. and my epilepsy was unstable. And so I didn't do it. And well, yeah. so that was more the reason. Yeah, I just know that I need to pick that up again.
Stephanie: Yeah.
Ayane: Yeah. I don't think I have further questions, though.
Stephanie: Okay, that's great. Yeah, great. Okay? I'm I'm glad. At least it seemed to resonate. So yeah.
Stephanie: okay. And then just for payment. I only have revolute up and running right now is that it? Do you have revolut
Ayane: What is revolut
Stephanie: Oh, you don't have us. Okay, right. Okay. What I'll do is I'll just send you a link for the payment. Then after this
Ayane: Yes. Okay.
Stephanie: Perfect. Perfect. Okay, thanks. A million. Okay. Lovely to meet you.
Ayane: Yes, thank you.
Stephanie: Okay, Bye.
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3 days later I discovered she is in the Iceland cruise retreat whatsapp group and I actuall gonna meet here IRL.
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Mar 22nd
rakurium is destroyed by mifillia terapagos. and we have not WoL vs WoD. but 2 Emet variant in the same way
i just started watching so this is like live commentary XD
omg they are gonna pull the Emet and hyth leaving at the end of EW, they started to glow
terapagos fell out of his arms because losing density
Famous Emet Smile!
And they are gone.
spinel being fandaniel (there was already said he would betray Gibeon, he did not intervere until Gibeon was gone lines up with the unsundered gone Fandaniel went rouge Ascian to destroy the world instead of repairing it. Also both spinel and ancient fandaniel have green hair lol.
six heroes have gone frenzied though rayquaza was unaffected and protects liko. so liko and gang and amet can leave the chaos
the earth cracked and all lucius memoires fell into the crack.
friede basically saying "remember us that we once lived" for lucius
endwalker basically
ofcourse air ship instead of space ship
they can't reach the height they gonna press an emergency button (teleport device? hahha)
but ofcourse the entire ship transforms
ofcourse XD i bet they can travel space now
well fuck he is gonna fall off
second pic well we have seen that look before in ffxiv when a character is gonna sacrifice themselves.
well i recommand highly to watch this episode: https://animeepisodeseries.com/pokemon-horizons-the-series-episode-89-english-subbed/
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March 23rd
ok so my ex was taking stuff from his from my shack to take with him. and he helped with carrying the storage crates of the convention of last weekend to the attic. when he was upstairs with the last crate. my son spotted an actual frog in the house (not a toad!). the frog was staring at him for some time. and my son laughing and giggling saying there is a frog in the house. i tried to catch it with a microfiber cloth, that didn't succeed until he got himself corned. though i couldn't throw the cloth upon him so i had to grab him with my bare hands. and oh my god frogs are slippery! i could barely wrap the cloth around him as ofcourse he was trying to escape. at the back door he slipped through and fell on the doorstep. i was able to pick him up quickly and put him unto the grass.
after i search up and spiritual meanings of finding a frog in your house and i must say it matches:
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March 24th
I got mad at TK because I noticed she had me on the ignore button for no reason.
“if you want out of the group just say it.,.....hitting me with the ignore button is fucking rude and i do not tolerate it.”
It took me quite the guts to say such a thing. And painfull too, that if she would not reply I really needed to kick her out. I couldn’t bare the ignoring anymore it was spiritually eating me.
Surprisingly she replied the next day
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March 25th
Tk: some gear that got datamined that may interest you, no idea how it's gotten, I just have someone that shows off all gear when the data gets posted. There's also (finally) crafted Hydalyn weapons with the effects on them. message for you in spoiler---> Also no, I did not put you on ignore, somehow the "ignore dm" option got selected on a bunch of friends. Just putting it out there on that. I will post the dream to you probably later today, should probably get some sleep before patch.
Me: Well ok... Make sure it doesn't happen again......ok?
And omg that's azeyma outfit. Need!
( so I was on the ignore button….be it true or not what she said I am not gonna argue about it. though the dream I still haven’t received but, that’s because she is actually typing up wayyy more interesting stuff at the moment of writing this. she is still responsive and did a lot of answering on questions. And I hope it stays that way……………..well nope and never received the type-up, again)
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Patch content with TK
Me: that girl in the back room at the end of 7.1 is also Sphene right but the good oneTK: It's the original Sphene yes
Me: hahahahhaha i knew it!
TK: There's original Sphene, the Sphene that we all knew, and the one now
Me: is the Vtuber Sphene also Deudalaphon ? or isn’t that revealed yet?
TK: Not yet
Me: any hint toward it?
TK: His given name means "husk" though
Me: huh?
TK: Calyx
Me: that boy of the trailer? (I wasn’t there yet)
TK: Yeah
Me: husk..... hmmmmm
TK: Calyx is Latin for husk or pod
Me: hmmm ex host of an Ascian? like thancred maybe?
TK: Could be, original Sphene knows him and he's from Preservation.
Me: i mean i can't say anything yet about the boy though. I am just hoping for any Deudalaphon hints as Eli showed me that in a vision last year in July. that Deudalaphon would enter the patch content. including a dream that vtuber Sphene said she is an Ascian. or did Lahabrea said other things about it about Sphene?
TK: The one walking around now sounds like her and the one we stopped in Living Memory sound like they are maybe clones? She taunts Wuk Lamat saying if she kills her another one will just be made. The original Sphene apparently was in stasis in that terminal in Living Memory.
Me: hmmmm does that boy make those clones? but otherwise. perhaps the original Sphene is a shard of deudalphon. everything points out Sphene, no matter which version reeks Ascian. and considering it was almost a calamity of lighting i highly suspect she is deudalphon. of maybe the boy is Deudalaphon. Deudalaphon is associated with lighting.
TK: So the fake Sphenes could be an Ascian, but being used as a vessel. She's following the boy like he's her master. Dude zaps you HARD with a lightning bolt lol.
Me: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and yes the fakes one could definitely be Deudalaphon. BUT you say the boy jolts you. that's an interesting one.
TK: Not sure with memory of each though. The one now seperates herself from the previous in terms of goals and such. And original Sphene of course knows nothing. Except stuff from before the kingdom turned into all it is.
Me: ok hear me out. before all of this patch content. i originally received the original Sphene was a shard of Deudalaphon so re-incarnated one like Gaia. but Source deudalphon interfered and brainwashed the original one and created an almost rejoining of lightning.
TK: Could be. Feels like her being put into stasis was intended
Me: exactly
TK: Since the guy straight up tells you he is from Preservation and he is trying to make humanity evolve to the next stage.
Me: wait am a minute, Gaius masks were from deudaphon and altima right? 1 could be altima. or altima is in the raid series.
TK: I think so? Forget which he had. Not sure what's going on with arcadion, all that happened so far was the cat girl told Honey B and Brute Bomber about the disease, Honey B took it well but Brute didn't.
Me: “twitter post yoshi confirmed: GAIUS' MASKS ARE ALTIMA AND DEUDALPHON”
TK: Ok there ya go XD.
Me: and my post after 7.1 https://bsky.app/profile/ayanefirebird.bsky.social/post/3lark7pvhnk2c
also check my comments on it.
TK: That terminal is where original Sphene got put. The one with the person on it
Me: yeah. that's the 9th shard of deudaphon probably. the actual Ascian is probably from the source
TK: They want the key still lol.
Me: they try to get it back? like that's not sus at alllllllll #sarcasm lol
TK: They shock you and go"damn she didn't die???" Lol
Me: hahahhaha. i mean sundered Ascians can’t hop over to other shards without the help of the unsundered (nabriales once told this). but source Deudalaphon used zoraal ja to enter the gate probably. because since then everything changed drastically.
TK: Original Sphene said the guy was "a genius" when it came to using the stuff on their shard that makes up their technology. Very well could be he was one of the people that started using it all the ways it was
Me: then it could be Deudalaphon is in the guy. as Deudalaphon is the innovator
TK: Makes sense.
Me: i mean we had Themis, Lahabrea and Eric clones. through memory crystals. i bet Deudalaphon acts as Athena on the Sphene clones .
TK: Guy comes off as someone who's a mad scientist.
Me: hahahhahah if that isn't Deudalaphon i gonna eat bird feathers.
TK: Can tell who's original Sphene quick because she doesn't have the green thing in her hair. Original Sphene's hair pretty normal lol.
Me: yes. funny Eli said that 2 months ago. but forgot to typ it up.
the original also doesn’t have that huge bow on her butt also this dream, was on Nov 29th
“Had a dream about Sphene.
The good one in a White dress, same model but not reflective and lesser decorations. And the Ascian one in the known yellow dress. I asked the Ascian Deudaplon who was inside that body to show their glyph. She got annoyed and turned her head away from me. And walked away.
Then i followed her and asked her 1 more question what Gender she really is,
"Are you male or female Ascian?" For example Emet-selch is male.
I gained a soft grump and then the Dream ended, but woke up in another dream me telling this to people.”
TK: Yeah original Sphene's pretty normal looking compared to the vtuber one lol
Me: well after that dream i remember i asked what Deudalaphon was in ancient times. and it was female. but could be male now obviously. like mitron
TK: Yeah. Also Seems that Azeyma outfit will be cash shop, not surprised. That made me think of you though lol.
Me: is it already there?
TK: I don't think? The data for the item is in game, dataminers can link the places where you obtain items, that's how they figure it out.
Me: but can venat's sword also be crafted?
TK: Yeah
Me: it would be awesome if we could get Elidibus's staff as a dragoon weapon
TK: Partner got on so I'm waiting on him to do dungeon lol
(1 H later)
Me: In the Dungeon?
TK: He's doing the msq, soon lol
Me: Ah ok ofcourse!
TK: Him: vtuber Sphene stares at you in a crazy look at one point
You know who does that? Ascians do that. Lol.
Me: Exactly. i saw that already at the end of 7.1 lol. That smile reeks Ascian
alrighty then attempt 2 of playing
(meanwhile TK did the dungeon and trial)
TK: Okay he seems to know about the Azem crystal. We used it to summon and he goes "ah, there it is ..."
Me: : eyes:
TK: Finished but was hard lol.
"I relinquished my flesh long ago" "people of the ninth"
Also knows about the Source lol
Me: relinquished my flesh. sounds Ascian
TK: That was from the dude
Me: yeah, i figured
TK: We got .. Sphene's crown???
Me: what
TK: He left us a gift. And it's the crown
Me: oh, no Ascian reveal? he just leaves? or died already?
TK: With other Sphene yes
Me: so still "alive"
TK: The trial is against a robot kinda lol
The crown holds memories interesting
Me: wait just like Convocation stones!
TK: Y'shtola gonna study the key now
Me: wait now? not since the end of 7.0?!
TK: Well more intensely.
Me: that was it i take it?
TK: Oh shit is GOING DOWN going down bad shit lol
Robots fighting civilians.
Me: wtff that guy is operating that?
TK: I think. We aren't sure. The elf lady and the little lizard can't figure out how to stop it
Me: damn. so i take story isn;t ended for this patch yet. at where you at
TK: After trial there's quite a bit of msq (6 min later) Okay msq done, nothing Ascian yet but the very last scene's kinda interesting lol.
Me: ok! finished the dungeon. unlocked trial now
TK: Have fun lol. The trial imo (and also my partner 's opinion) had some really hard to see things on the ground.
Me: yeah correct just finished it! so the simulant Sphene is completely gone now?
TK: Apperently.
Me: hmmmm so fake Sphene wasn't the Ascian alas. then that dude might still be. is he still out there at the end of msq?
TK: The very final cutscene he's on top of the terminal in Living Memory saying stuff.
Me: ohhhhh. ok!
(some time later)
Me: OK FINISHED THE MSQ. oops caps. well i guess it can only be Calyx who is Deudalaphon/Ascian then. or maybe he is operated by deuda. i don't know anymore
can you speak with Lahabrea? what does he say about Sphene? Eli once said she was Deudalaphon....
but i guess she isn't?? so what is the truth.
TK: Last time I talked to him about it he said that someone else was behind the scenes that was connected to Deudalaphon. Sphene was just a tool.
Me: when did he said that?
TK: Like... Beginning of the year. Not original Sphene lol but the fake Sphene. The one that was in the msq of dawntrail somewhat broke protocol and I think the mamool ja guy somewhat caused that
Me: zoraal ja?
TK: I forgot his name, Lol. So the stuff she was doing was whatever part of actual Sphene was in her memory would have done... Except the endless stuff Lol.
Me: i see. has Lahabrea any commentary on why Eli said it was Sphene being Deudalaphon
TK: I didn't ask him that but I can later.
Me: pls do.....it makes me question what Eli tells me..... it gives uncertainty....i guess you are better in communicating with Lahabrea then i can with eli. ...........T-T
TK: Ehh I don't know. Sometimes I go for awhile without hearing from him or getting anything.
Me: perhaps. but atleast what you get has never been wrong.......aside from me....i am not always getting the truth it seems. it makes me questioning my own abilities.
TK: :/ I think you are fine.
Me: pls ask Lahabrea about this. pls.
TK: Alright I will
Me: thanks.
TK: Oh yeah Lahabrea make a joke the other day about AZ from Pokemon that he was an ancient lol Am looking forward to ZA.
Me: lol. oh yeah you should check the group for the screenshots of the last pokemon horizons episode! so many overlapping things.
TK: Saw some of them
Me: Emet has been busy with the anime clearly XD. wonder what the next arc will be about. roy will have mega lucario.
Then we were both busy with the raids.
She was a little ahead of me.
TK: I'm glad with msq they are finally curing the people. With the pigs. Lol
Me: oh yeah about feral soul btw, this is what i got a little while ago from my ex. i did posted it in the group not sure is you read that:
So some interesting things my ex told me yesterday.
skinWalkers capture soul of animals to get super Strength.....
Doesn't that sound heavily familiar with the regulators in DT?! the regulator has a feral soul in it for super powers of that animal/monster.
DT gets darker and darker the more you come to know.
TK: Yeah that whole thing was already dark to me
Me: ikr. i wonder if the dev team realizes this they put it in there is related to skinwalkers. i mean those things mainly occur in the usa/america .
(some minutes later)
Me: a question. are you able to reach Lahabrea when he is not near you? or do you need to wait until he pops up. to communicate i mean.
TK: Sometimes I can, sometimes I cannot. I have no idea what influences being able to.
Me: busy mind i guess?
TK: Could be.
Me: that is mostly the culprit. i suppose you can;t try to reach him now? i am really bothered by that Eli said Sphene is Deudalaphon....
(side note: I was so focused on that, that I forgot what I said earlier that the original Sphene could still be a shard of Deudalaphon, making what Eli said still true, but yeah we don’t know in game yet.)
TK: I'm doing game stuff lol can try later.
Me: TY.
Raid fights
Me: wait there is only 3 fights? ohhhh nvm brute bomber comes in between.
TK: Tip: for the one petrify attack, keep a add alive and hide behind it
You can thank me later (we had so many issues).
Me: i gonna copy paste that in the party chat ty
20min later
Me: tysm killed it already
TK: Okay so... I still think the president may be Ascian? With that at the end.
Me: i still need to get there. but i had my sus already about what you just said since 7.0
4th unlocked. i hope i got energy enough to finish this 21:30 already here. ah he can use stone edge.
TK: He's a Gundam of that one rock wolf. Lol
Me: at 10% we wiped ffs
(10min later)
Me: got him down finally.
TK: Really tough fights this time lol
Me: finished everything finally. and bed time lol
TK: I may post the dream late night for me but will post it.
Me: i keep you to that hahah. and if possible ask Lahabrea.
TK: KK
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March 26th
TK: T-T uugghhh got up too early for patch and tired now. I will post it in morning.
Me: T-T It's ok though. though also in the morning you are more able to have spiritual connections. Try to reach Lahabrea pls.
If I am correct Eli told why to Lahabrea already.
Several hours later
Me: i hope you slept well
TK: Good morning! Need to take a shower and such to go out and do some shopping. I asked Lahabrea some questions and will put that down with the dream. (I really tried to do that last night but my mind completely wouldn't let me, I'm sorry )
(the dream I never got, but the question later luckily)
Me: ok thanks for letting me know. i hope you can typ it up all soon.
oh some interesting stuff. not sure if Eli spoke the truth about this. but from what he told me when they get here physically they gonna [Redacted].
and he said Lahabrea would do [redacted], Elidibus [Redacted] and Emet selch, [Redacted].
i would laugh my ass off for Emet taking [Redacted]
this made me think just now lol. i remember haters joking about this that the Ascian would save us, and making fun of us. i would laugh in their face so hard if they actually get it done XD if Lahabrea ever speaks of this, let me know. or perhaps you can ask? XD i would like some verification on this if you don;t mind XD.
TK: I asked Lahabrea in the past, he said he was helping Emet with some of the [redacted] because there's way too many that are particularly difficult to deal with. Emet does more but he (laha) helps. Eli has [redacted], yes. Considering how we are going here I don't think Lahabrea has to do much [redacted] by idiots!
Me: well yeah Trump is doing a lot already getting the usa out of the WHO and hopefully also the WEF. it had also a positive trigger too a few european countries who also are going out of the WHO. unfortunately my country the netherlands are the worst. [Eli is taking on the core of] the darkest shit your will ever know that is playing here. unfortunately even in my city.
in short, governments leaders doing satanic rituals offering children they took away from their parents. they use child support organization to get those children its absolutely disgusting.
TK: gross. I really don't like our government over here currently lol. people are suffering and getting things they need taken away.
Me: i know you don’t like trump, but getting out of the WHO is a big step to actual freedom.
TK: oh no I don't have too much of an issue with that. but there's a lot of stuff over here that we had set in place for people that is getting demolished. and our health is now being run by someone who had a brain-eating worm in his brain for a bit and thinks the best way to solve the bird flu thing currently is to let everything die.
Me: well thats new to me.
you don’t wanna know what they are doing here with the flu. in my country solely they gonna do and experiment to inject all chickens and egg with the MRNA (bird flu) so people eat it and get sick. they either die or get nanobots in them. and in 2027 they are gonna do beef aswell.... while the later only happens if the formar is succesfull. seriously my country is sick
that bird flu is man made like Covid, and they are even threatening with a disease worse then this covid and bird flu. at the end of this year.....which my sis predicted in January
but i think i made your brain fomit too much now.
TK: nah im just trying to live day by day XD.
Me: XD same here. hanging on until the Unsundered gonna save us.
do you have time to typ the dream and what Lahabrea said?
TK: also because Lahabrea specifically wants to make sure a lot of people do not die, [especially with [redacted] being... well [redacted]]. lol
Me: Emet being Emperor again but this time a good one hahahahahha (# joke).
TK: and some other countries like that.
Me: yeah. are there other things that you never told me before?
TK: uhh guess I'll type up that other dream then lol.
Me: well yeah that one dream and i meant more in the sense of things Lahabrea told your directly.
TK: if i think of them i will say lol.
Me: TY.
TK: I should specify when I'm talking about stuff with our government over here I don't entirely blame Trump for everything, but a lot of the people he has put in place to help him govern are not very good people. it's kinda like he may not be the one at fault but he put the people there that are doing the bad things.
Me: well yeah, though kennedy seems a good one though. the rest is indeed very questionable or very dangerous. like that war hound dude.but yeah. pls typ the dream up and what Laha said about Sphene and why Eli lied....
TK: I said what Laha said about Sphene. unless you mean what he said about Eli lying?
Me: yes. i mean you asked Laha right?)
TK: yeah I did this morning. maybe a little bit when i was showering too (don't worry he doesn't really care when i do it then lmao)
Me: i know they don’t care lol. but pls let me know?
TK: i didn't draw up the stuff with the dream so I'm going to have to expain in detail some stuff, involves some symbols with some of the things.
Me: ok
TK: if i don't post right away it's because I went shopping, not sure when we are leaving. [redacted personal stuff]
Me: ok! but you live with your partner at a friend’s house now?
TK: no my partner and I don't live with each other yet.
Me: ohhhhhhhh
TK: he's still trying to get a better job going. T-T he got sick this past week but i think he's starting it next week.
Me: oh god. i hope he will be better by then.
TK: Oh yeah. That one friend of mine finally got out of that hellhole she was at.
Me: the one with the crazy mom?
TK: yeah. I think Lahabrea helped with it but I won't tell her that because I don't think she would take it well but one of our other friends had a sort of apartment open up that is next to their house and people pitched in to help her move. She has been doing a lot better and I think she can finally work on some stuff she wants to do.
Me: that's good news. if she is not open to the idea spirits can help then yeah just don;t . but yeah they aren't just spirits lol.
TK: some of my friends I don't talk about it with because many of them have been beaten down by the not good religious people we have over here.
so I just kinda don't approach the subject with them unless something happens they can't really explain otherwise.
Me: i see. that kind of religious people are always so tiring
TK: we have way too many of them over here, it's so annoying
been told by many of them im going to hell lol.
Me: you just don’t get through that thick head of theirs.
And hahahhahahahahha. ya know i can easily debunk those kind of iditots. like. "you know the desciples of Jesus in the afterlife is called a council or brotherhood of light? i am of such a council member but not of this planet. and the leader which is my husband was substitute Jesus on our home planet". something like that.
i serious would throw that in their faces XD. i just don’t care anymore.
TK: lol
Me: makes me Mary magdelene lol of Etheirys.
TK: XD
Me: btw Venat is Mary hahahha
TK: fine with me x3
Me: hahahahhaha
my ex actually came with the fact Elidibus was actually a subsitute jesus. and that made me think. since Venat is our mom. and as Hydaelyn she calls out to WoL to rise up right?
the prediction here on earth goes. that during the 3 days of darkness mother Mary would speak to us all. to awaken us in masses. sounds familiar doesn’t it?
TK: yeah lol
Me: XD. also my ex, did some reach on jesus. Jesus was often referred to as a phoenix..... and “the traveler”. GREAT just great. Azem (WoL).
And here she went shopping and do life stuff and she didn’t replied anymore.
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March 27th
TK: really having brain fog today. just will post what Lahabrea said about Eli which... isn't much tbh. He said he doesn’t know why he told you that and while he did ask him, he didn't really give him an answer. He assumes he didn't want you to know about it until later?
Also he said that for who does what when they are physical that he think Eli has the hardest job lol. [Redacted] is so big and Eli has to deal with all those [redacted].
Me: that's strange because it wasn't that he didn't want to spill spoilers. he literally said that shpene was Deudalaphon. ....or he made me believe that that was the case. which is flat out lying.
and yeah about the second part, Eli taking on the most of it. i am not surprised. that's so him lol. he said it would take some time though.[redacted].
did Lahabrea told any details of how they are gonna do their things? (i wont put it online this is high classified info lol).
TK: He just said he doesn't know his motive behind saying some of the things, can't get much more out because he really doesn't know.
A little? Fell like i need to take time and write that one out too. But this headache is pissing me off right now.
Rest of the conversation was about health stuff and some game stuffs.
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March 28th
TK: Haha! Found a funny glitch in houses. Sit done on the ground or a chair and then select your summoning bell. When you get out of that menu you will always sit after moving
Me: wait what.
TK: Yeah try it lol. I think this happened because of the new mount thing
Me: ahahahahhahahahah
my char is sitting on Themis minion XD
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March 29th
Me: I had a dream about Joshua and jote. Did you ever had the chance to play ff16
TK: no i didn’t.
Me: ah too bad. ever planning on buying it yourself?
TK: maybe when im able to.
She didn’t replied anymore to the other irrelevant things I spoke about, the next day she said she was sick.
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Dreams
Jan 8th
It’s possibly about a new game, and Eli will at least be in it.
At the end of the dream, I suddenly found myself at a game convention or event, but it hadn’t opened yet.I was cosplaying as a character I didn’t recognize. I wore a green woolen cape—not from Attack on Titan though!
Suddenly, the first part of the victory fanfare played loudly, and the gates opened, followed by the rest of the fanfare music. As I walked with the crowd to get inside, someone suddenly appeared to my left—like they had teleported.I looked at him: silver hair tied in a ponytail, all combed back. His hair was slightly wavy, from what I could see, and oh my god, such a tender face.He was also wearing the same green cape, indicating he was cosplaying a character too.
Me: “OMG, Eli? Is that you?!”
Eli: [nods with a confirming hum]
Me: “OMG!”
I never expected him to be in the dream, but I instantly knew it wouldn’t last much longer.I leaned on his shoulder sideways, like I was floating while walking at the same time—my legs didn’t feel physical anymore, lol.
We stopped for a moment to kiss. Oh my god, his face was so soft and perfect in every way.I closed my eyes while kissing him, but I thought, “No, I don’t want this to end so soon.”I opened my eyes—and he was still there.We kept walking, but shortly after, the dream ended.
According to Eli, it’s a game they’re working on, and he will be one of the main characters.The story will include a “Shard” arc, like in Final Fantasy XVI, but it won’t be marketed as a “Shard story.”
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Jan 16th
Yeah OK before I forget — it’s now January 16, and on January 15 I had a dream about ancient Lahabrea who was showing us things. I don’t remember what he said — already didn’t when I woke up — but he was in it, spot on, and he didn’t change appearance either. So yeah, in general I can say that it was really him.
Today, since it’s Elidibus and my engagement anniversary, I had this really vague dream where he might already have had a body, and I went to get him Viagra. I was like, “Why would he need that?” But I guess with acceleration he could last longer during sex. OK, slap slap, yeah OK. So I went to validate some kind of special environment — you know to check how old I was — but it wasn’t just some shop where you could buy that kind of stuff. It was also like a drugstore, where I got my deodorant and stuff.
Further in the area, there were events — you could go swimming there. And no, not nude, weirdly enough. It was all normal. But there was this event where you could catch Unowns (Pokémon), and apparently in a previous dream I had done that once? Question marks. And also something with Jenga but like, Pokémon? I don’t f*cking know. And there was some weird little store with all kinds of bizarre wigs.
Anyway, I had bought that Viagra pill and walked out of the store, but then apparently I had forgotten my backpack, so I wanted to go back. But the person who checks your age suddenly got all weird, like he was dead or something? I don’t f*cking know. And then he says, “Yeah, Elidibus is standing over there.” He was invisible. “Yeah look, he’s standing there,” and he pointed with his hands at where his silhouette was supposed to be.
And I was wondering, “I don’t see anything — is that OK?” After that I think the dream went on about something else, and then I woke up. But according to Eli, he really was standing there. But I couldn’t see him. Such a shame. Oh well, that was it.
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Feb 13th
these were two dreams that fell under the same subject.Alright, that first dream… let me think. Okay. I was in some kind of future. A lot of people were cramped together in a house, but that house was originally mine. It was a kind of split-level home, but then it morphed into lots of separate little rooms, and at some point into one big carnival of sorts, with everyone living together in that “box,” so to speak.
Then suddenly an old Turkish woman came to me and practically threw her two babies at me.
Me: “Those aren’t mine, get lost. I’m done with kids.”You know? I was older in the dream, I think.
Me: “I already have enough. That’s your problem, keep them yourself. Don’t dump them on someone else.”She was yelling.
Me: “They’re your children.”
Yeah, that was really vague. And then at some point it was mealtime. Everyone had to eat vegan by force.
Me: “Normally I have a piece of meat, because if I’m still hungry after this…”
Woman: “Then you can take more servings.”I saw some fake meat lying around or something.
Me: “What’s that then? Give me that. Even if it’s chemical crap, at least it might fill me more than just vegetables.”
What I got on my plate was some kind of vegetable mush — cauliflower, asparagus, carrots, all mashed into one big mess. I thought, “What the fuck is this?” I went back into the house and everyone there was eating too. At some point I was fed up with it and decided to leave. I flew away. Or no — I wanted to try to put on my Ascian robes and manifest myself, you know, like I usually can (like changing your gear in the game with one button). But it didn’t really work. I ended up with half-formed robes, sort of in the Ascian style, but without the logos or armor.
So I flew away, escaped it all. At some point I wanted to go to the Unsundered and apparently I knew where I had to go. Then there was this force field I had to get through. But it didn’t work right away. I could pass through, but I got bounced back to the start — back to the house. So yeah, I kept trying with all my strength to get through the force field, but it didn’t work, so I ended up back there again.
I escaped again and also had to shake off pursuers. There was a little blue bird that looked like Meteion and I had to follow it to avoid those guys and find the force field again. And this time I could pass through. It was like an arch, like the entrance to a cave, but not an actual cave — more like a ravine. Very Final Fantasy-like, I must say. I finally got through.
Okay, so I arrived there and searched for the Unsundered. I caught a quick glimpse of Lahabrea, I think, and I flew further to the back of the building they were in. Then the ravine suddenly turned into nature — rocks around, but like an oasis inside the ravine. And a house, a lookout-tower kind of house. At the back, Elidibus was there. I flew to him and kissed him.
I “saved my progress” XD — in case I had to start over again. That was during the kiss with Eli. And when I restarted, I was already inside the barrier. So it actually worked — the save point! But then I saw “Eli”… but it turned out not to be him. I thought it was because of the hair, but actually it was an older woman with white hair. I said something to Lahabrea, who had suddenly gotten Viera ears — though I think it was more like a headband. He said: “Yeah, she went outside, she morphed, that’s why she looks like that now.”
So I said: “And you then? You became a Viera?” He then changed into a normal person again, I think. According to Linala it was the real Lahabrea, though. He’s been changing appearances a lot lately, so that’s his thing I guess. He had something like a Viera headband, but he still had normal human ears too, so I was like, “You’re half-Viera.”Laha: “Yeah, I had to get her out.”
So in the end it wasn’t Eli, unfortunately. I think I woke up after that.
Then the second dream: people were rebelling. Everyone who worked for the guy that forced people to become vegan and live in cramped little housing — they were rising up. Sounds a lot like what the government here is trying: phasing out meat, cramming people into flats. Anyway, people revolted, even the kitchen staff. My father, who apparently ran the medicine for people, said: “I’m done too. I might as well go back to regular work, it pays better. You’re free to go.”
So we could go wherever we wanted. I took everyone from my house — “my house.” Everyone packed their stuff. But among my things were baby socks, pink and blue. I thought, “Nope, screw that, I don’t need those, not mine.”
(If that means in the future I’ll accidentally have a kid with Eli — fine, I’ll keep it, but I really hope he stays healthy, because I don’t want that. Maybe adoption? I don’t know. I’ll be over 40, almost 50 if he comes later. In 5 years I’ll be 42. I don’t want another child. An astral child — fine, I’ll take it. But physically? heavy sigh).
So yeah, I threw them aside. (Or maybe it means adoption? Could be. But then I wouldn’t say “that’s not mine.” Unless it literally belonged to someone else, by accident. Hopefully it refers to the spiritual pregnancy still to come — then I wouldn’t have any care duties. Because physically I can’t handle that right now).
Anyway, everything packed, everyone packed, we all went toward the Unsundered area. I took them with me. But in between there was this guy, some Moroccan, who apparently had a relationship with my mother and wouldn’t leave her alone. Then my mother suddenly became 30 years younger. Maybe it represented my sisters’ father, but he’s not Moroccan. Very strange. Anyway, he wouldn’t leave her alone, so I literally threw him over me and transformed into Phoenix to burn him away — but it didn’t work. Very vague.
We all headed toward the Unsundered anyway. Everyone I had brought with me went through the barrier, so they were gone. I was still dealing with that one guy. I was normal again, tried to drag him away, but he wouldn’t let go. He had to be blasted away. I thought I saw Eli — but it wasn’t him. Maybe it was Archangel Michael. I asked: “Hey Eli, can you help me get rid of him?”
Then he answered in Goku’s voice (which says it all really): “Helping you? I think you can do this perfectly yourself.” That’s not Eli — Eli would always help me.Me: “Okay, fine.”
Then I transformed into Phoenix and blasted him away with some kind of fireball attack. And then “Eli” said things Eli would normally say — but I can’t remember the words anymore. It sounded like a film epilogue. Very Final Fantasy-like. Something like “We will save you, everyone.” That’s why I thought it was Eli. But the guy was already out of sight, it felt like end credits rolling.
So maybe it was a vision from my higher self. I asked Linala: was that supposed to be Eli? She said yes, it was meant to represent him. But the line “you can do this yourself” — that was my higher self telling me I had to do it on my own.
So yeah, it was a higher-self dream. Not actually Eli delivering the epilogue — probably my higher self. Fine. Lahabrea, though, was the real one. I asked, and yes, it was really him.
It’s been a long time since I fully became Phoenix. The last time was with that Pandora’s Box thing with Lahabrea — at the end when I had to fight something, can’t remember exactly. That was the last full Phoenix transformation. And now I had it twice in one dream. So if that means my health is going the right way — yes, I’m raised again. I was a dead Phoenix, and I’m alive again.
(…well, not fully until recently, to be honest).
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Feb 14thI literally dreamt about Lahabrea for half the night. Okay, let’s see what I can still remember. The first dream—was that the same dream? No. Wait, yes, it was the same dream. So what was the second one, then? Right, the first one... okay, I don’t remember the second one anymore. Maybe it’ll come back later.
In the first dream, I was with someone—I don’t even know who—and we were looking at a leak of the MSQ. It was supposedly the second leak about Lahabrea returning in the main scenario. You could see all these sketches, like black-and-white concept art, and there was younger Lahabrea, and also his older face. One sketch showed him walking past Y’shtola. So yeah, definitely main scenario.
Like, “Oh yes, look, he’s coming back,” and I said, “Yeah, send me the link to that thing.” At some point I accidentally closed the sketches and was like, “Hey, send me the link again on Discord.” Clicking around between TV and Discord like, “Yeah, just drop it there.” That person could somehow access my Discord and paste it. And when I clicked it again, instead of seeing sketches, I read that Lahabrea’s return was indeed part of the second leak and he’d be coming back in the MSQ.
Suddenly I was outside in Holtenbroek, in the grassy area behind my childhood friend’s house. We were still talking about it, and someone said, “Yeah, I think he’s already here, has been for a few days.”Me: “Yeah, I’m almost sure of it, because he’s influencing the devs too, obviously.”
I think I then saw him standing there. I wanted to approach him—he was even wearing his ancient robes—but I looked like a mess, so I needed to put on my ancient robes too. I started walking halfway toward my friend’s house for some reason, but I knew I could change clothes instantly like in-game. “Come on, come on, put it on, put it on.” Completely out of Lahabrea’s sight, I put on my ancient robes, mask and all, even my own mask I have here.
I walked back—but he was gone. He’d been talking to someone before I left, and by the time I came back, he was gone. Then it got kind of fuzzy because I started looking for Lahabrea, but instead ran into other Ancients. They were wearing really weird masks—super weird—but all red. Which was strange, because they weren’t Convocation members. That was the weirdest part, like, “Huh? I don’t recognize those masks. They don’t match anything I know.”
I did talk to them for a bit, but I don’t remember—it wasn’t interesting anyway. Then I walked away and apparently asked an invisible (fake) Eli if those were Convocation members. I thought I heard “officials,” like high-ranking people but not Convocation members. So not true Convocation.
Then I met another Ancient who asked, “Do you remember who I am? From like 16,000 years ago?” He looked closely at my mask and went, “Oh, Azem?”
Me: “Yes!”That was what I had been hoping for from those others, but they didn’t answer. The only thing they replied to was:
Me: “Are those your masks?”
Them: “Yes.”
Me: “Huh?”Anyway, that one who recognized me—“16,000 years ago” was just a reference for how long ago it was, Earth-time. That’s why I said 16,000. We were obviously on Earth.
Later I asked someone if Lahabrea or Elidibus was around, and I don’t remember what they said. But I concluded: “Wait, Eli is invisible to me. Eli, at least show yourself physically.” Then someone came from above in white robes. I thought it was a “he,” (but it turned out to be a “she.” Which I didn’t know yet)
Hood off, white hair revealed.“Yes!” i said, and “he”walked off for a moment. And came back. “You wanted me here before 20 hours,” he said. Then “he” took off the robes, turned halfway around, and happened to be a woman standing there in just a bra.
Me: “No thanks.”
Girl: “Oh, shame. I almost had you.”
Me: “I am not gay.”I think I woke up after that and asked Eli about it, and yeah, apparently officials wouldn’t have red masks.
The second dream was also about Lahabrea—pretty long too—but I don’t remember the details. It felt like a continuation, and he was with me. Not sure if that was actually part of the third dream I’ll mention now, but anyway—I think I dreamed about Lahabrea for like 5 hours straight. I swear, that’s a long time.
I just remember trying to get info from that leak again. That’s about all for the second dream.
Third dream—I remember we were still in Holtenbroek. Something weird was going on, and at some point Lahabrea was chained up. I was trying to free him. I breathed fire like Phoenix to melt the chains. They didn’t turn red—they turned black—and that’s how I freed him. Then something about me becoming Phoenix for the first time? I don’t remember clearly.
We talked and were supposed to head to the harbor near Klooienberglaan. But all sorts of strange stuff kept happening. I turned into Phoenix first—I don’t know what he was doing—but I was blasting things with flamethrowers in Phoenix mode. Then somehow I became him as Phoenix briefly. Eli said he can actually do that, kind of like a merge like you see in Pandæmonium with creations and such.
He said, “Yeah, it’s not like literally turning into the primal Phoenix. That’s something else entirely.”Anyway, I was briefly him, spitting out weird plasma spit like a chameleon tongue but as a flamethrower. That was Lahabrea’s, apparently.
Eventually it stopped working, I turned back to myself, and he was standing next to me saying, “We have to go.”
Then suddenly we were at the harbor, and I went into some kind of building or ship. It was so strange. I recognized it from another dream but couldn’t remember when—too long ago. I said, “This again.” There were all these antique items, super eerie vibes. Like those Akashic waves in FF16—looked kind of like that, purple and pink.
I walked through all the old stuff and some kind of ghost raccoon tried to attack me.
Me: “Hey stop, I’m not hurting you.”It disappeared. I kept walking and saw Lahabrea—not with me, but nearby. Then I ended up in a bigger room, about four times larger, and I lost the thread again. I think I was back on land, maybe on Klooienberglaan or at the start of Hofmanstraat.
Huge entities were trying to stop Lahabrea. It didn’t go well—he was kind of defeated. But somehow I brought him back or saved him? I’m not sure.
Me: “Can you even be destroyed here?”
Him: “No.”
Me: “OK, that’s a relief.”
Then out of nowhere some creepy perv showed up—some big dumb guy who wanted to marry me, started harassing me, sexually.
Me: “Hey, I’m already married.”Pretending it was to Lahabrea (even though it was actually Elidibus). I said it to get rid of the guy.
I attacked him, got him to the ground, tried to hit him in the balls—but they felt like stone. Then Lahabrea showed up and just killed him with telekinesis. Poof, gone. Maybe even a flamethrower too, but it happened so fast I barely saw it.
We walked a few steps down Hofmanstraat—and then: earthquake. We turned around and saw a freaking giant Ifrit.(Eli was like, “What the fuck?” While writing this)Lahabrea ran toward it. It was huge—even bigger than FF16’s version. I’d say Titan-size. I tried to turn into Phoenix, So I did, But I—I was way too small, I couldn’t do anything with it. I was like, ‘This is useless. I’m way too small.’ So in other words, I was also too weak to fight it. When Lahabrea fought Ifrit It felt like the FFXIV world—Etheirys—was merging with Earth. Super weird. Like when the 9th Shard merges with Etheirys, but this time it was Earth and Etheirys or maybe a video game world. Like a projection onto Earth. That’s what it felt like.
Lahabrea was trying to stop it—all those primals and stuff, well Ifrit.He said, “This isn’t good.”
Me: “What is this? Is the Final Fantasy world merging with Earth?”
Him: “No…”
Then he said some complicated word that I forgot.
Me: “I don’t know what that means.”(I think it was something like “ignation” or “intercnation” or something ending in “-tion.” Maybe not a real word.)
When it was all over, we were walking together again, continuing down the street.
Then we started talking about the other Convocation members’ names, and he listed a bunch of Dutch names. I was like, “Huh?” Like Rosa, Ronald, Jan —really Dutch-sounding names.
Later we ended up on Lortzingstraat near my dad’s place, or at least in that area, at one of the parking spots. There were more Convocation members there—or at least people who seemed like them. Two of them walked with us, and Lahabrea.
Eventually we met Amanda, who was selling drinks or something from a market stand (Eli was laughing).
Me: “Look, I brought the real Lahabrea with me.”
Amanda: “Oh.”
She offered samples of the drinks—not full cups, just little tasters. Lahabrea stayed back, I think. The two others had a sip. Amanda said something like, “If it’s poisonous, you won’t die,” which was sketchy already.
Someone else who was suddenly there gave Amanda some of the drink, and she pretended to faint—like clearly acting. It was some green-yellow stuff. She let out one of those classic dramatic “owhh” noises. And I think that’s when I woke up.
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Feb 23rd – On Aetherys
So, I was supposed to time travel to Amaurot with a group of people, but something went wrong.We ended up in the year 10,000 after the Sundering—so over 2,000 years in the past.But somehow, it still felt like the present.
The first thing I saw was a massive oval-shaped building standing in the middle of a large lake.It was modern in structure—let’s say something in the style of Solution Nine.The others I had traveled with were now gone.
Me: “WTF! That’s not an Amaurot building, but it’s standing in the right spot.”I kept walking through a landscape with a sandy path, grass, trees, and a farmhouse on my right.The grassy plains were to my left.I kept walking.
Me: “Eli, why aren’t you here? I’m on Aetherys.”(Not even considering that he doesn’t have a physical body, lol.)I looked to the right.
Me: “OH, CHOCOBOS!”
A man who was tending to them turned around…
Me: “OH, this is the road to Limsa!”
I walked up to the man.
Me: “Is this the road to Limsa Lominsa?”
Man: “Yes, it is.”
Me: “Ah, so it is. Thank you very much.”
I continued on and arrived at what looked like a port.There was a small wooden hut to my left. I looked inside and saw my character lying there—K.O.
Me: “Oh no, my character. Let me Raise you.”
I reached out my hand and saw white magic spiraling from my palm.She woke up and stood, but was startled by me and ran off.When I chased after her—
Me: “Ayane, stop! I’m not your enemy!”
While running, her appearance changed—she became someone with pink hair, a hairstyle like Lightning’s, and wearing summery clothes: a yellow short dress with shorts underneath. (Fluttershy?)
When she finally stopped and I caught up to her:
Me: “You don’t have to be afraid. I’m your friend. Let’s go on an adventure together!”
She nodded, and I woke up. I turned over, and the dream continued with the group I had started with.
Woman: “That was the disguised timeline—but I’ll prepare you for the real one.” (um… not Amaurot, unfortunately)
After trying on armor for the other party members, I saw someone who looked like Estinien, but with a different lance, and another person resembling Dragoon Kain.I had to help the others find the correct timeline, but when I reached the room I was supposed to be in, I briefly woke up—then fell back asleep and continued the dream.
(The original dream was much longer, but I don’t remember most of it.)
Apparently, I had completed whatever I needed in that room, and now we had to sing songs from FF games before we could go.
Once in a hall, someone sang Suteki Da Ne, and then it was my turn—I sang Close in the Distance.After that, someone else sang something, and then another person began singing Fly Away from FFXVI.
Me: “Oh, but the lyrics are really deep here. Are you sure you want to sing that?”
Guy: “It’ll be fine.”
Me: “Wouldn’t it be easier if I played the Phoenix? I could transform and…”
Guy: “No, that’s not necessary.”
I looked at a screen showing the Phoenix flying in a video, and then I actually woke up.
According to Eli: That oval building was originally a surviving Amaurot structure that he and the others protected during the Rejoinings.It used to be a research facility, but after he and the others were defeated, it was renovated by people from Solution Nine who had come to Eorzea.
It’s still a research facility, but what they’re doing there now—I don’t know.
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Mar 3rd
Okay, it was half about Final Fantasy, Thancred and Urianger. So it began that apparently My bestie had done something that made Thancred and Urianger no longer friends with each other.
Before that, the dream had already been going on with other random stuff. Anyway, my mother picked me up and then it was said: there’s something going on with My bestie and Thancred or something, she said. And then I was told that they had a big fight and now Thancred and Urianger wanted nothing to do with each other anymore. And My bestie was in between somehow. I don’t know what he had done, or what he had said. But that was that, and I was a bit sad about it.
I first tried to fix it all, and then I had some kind of— I don’t know what she was — a Viera girl, but more human, like a half-Viera. But I just considered her Viera. She was just a human with rabbit ears. But the ears were really thin, almost not there. Plus the girl was 3 meters tall — literally taller than Zenos. My head only reached her hips, her butt. So okay. But that size comparison actually only became clear at the end. Somewhere in the beginning she said:
Viera: “Look, that’s your dad.”
Me: “The Hrothgar teacher from the Viera?”
Viera: “Yes.”
So I had lots of question marks. Later she said something like “Oh so I was right.”
Me: “So my father was a Hrothgar then?”
Viera: “I have no idea.”
And then it went on that I went to another space, outside of the earlier room but still inside the building. One big hall with Aetheric stuff. And I asked— I thought of Ghost (the fake Discord member), but it turned out to be a gothic punk girl. That was a reference to an old classmate of mine from the my education. I only remembered her— oh her name was Lotte I think, yes, wait, yes because I call her Lisselot in this dream. Oh wait, so it really was her. Only she didn’t have black hair anymore, but pink with blonde and purple — bright purple, really unusual.
Me: “I need your help.”And she suggested that we should go through a dimension together to fix it.
There was a strange clock with lots of metal chains hanging from it, and she had to hang on to it. Then the thing would pull you up and take you into another dimension. That happened to her, but I didn’t get pulled up. I tried to jump, to climb, but nothing really happened. I don’t know if I went through another dimension or not. But I think I briefly woke up here, and then slipped back into the dream.
Then I was back in that building where Thancred and Urianger had argued. I walked a bit outside, back to where I had been with Lotte, and I showed some sadness.
My father came up to me (the Hrothgar).Father: “What’s wrong?”
Me: “One friend made another friend not want contact anymore, and now our whole group is falling apart.”
And I gently rested my head against him. I didn’t really see my father clearly, but he touched me, you know.
Father: “Well, then we’ll just have to do something about it.”
Me: “I just don’t know how. Wait.”
We were suddenly in a room. I was about to do something, but he said “we.”
Me: “I can travel through dimensions and I’d like to take you with me, but I don’t know if you can do that.”
Father: “Well, I don’t know if I can, but let’s just try.”
So I took him along with a little rope (laughs). I don’t know why that rope, but he had to— it was tied around my waist, I think, and he held on to it. So he floated behind me, because I was flying. At first I was pushed forward by some kind of aetheric wind, but then a blue bird flew ahead — no, not Meteion — a bluish little bird. I called it Pidgeon.
And when we had flown around the corner:
Me: “Pidgeon, find portal.”
And then we actually went to a glowing portal.
Me: “Dive in and take us with you.”And that happened.
It was a portal on the ground. It took a while before we actually went through. Halfway I grabbed my father’s sleeve to make sure he came along. And after a while — I think a good 10 seconds or so — we came through and I could see again.
And then it wasn’t about Thancred and Urianger anymore, unfortunately. (I think if I had fallen asleep again it would have continued, but sadly not. I’d be blessed if it continues after this recording, but I don’t expect it.)
Anyway, we came through the dimensional gate, and my father had changed into a human version of a Hrothgar. Apparently that was normal. So just a lot of facial hair, but the body pretty much the same, just human. So less fur, let’s put it that way. Kind of a Hrothgar look. Maybe a half-Hrothgar, that could be. I don’t know if that’s even possible. I should ask Eli about the races. In principle all races are connected with humans, but I don’t know how it is with Hrothgar.
Anyway, my father had changed, and that half-Viera girl (who I considered a Viera) was there with the rest of her girl group, whatever.
Father: “Yes, I was that Hrothgar who taught the Viera.”
And that was hundreds of years ago.
Me: “Huh?! You were that Hrothgar?”
Me: “Look, this is my father.”
And then that girl, with her group, said “Oh so I was right.” Apparently it was a guess of hers. Maybe it was intuitive knowing. But her group were actually the ones he had taught — only hundreds of years later. Because those Viera were like 4–500 years old or so, under 500. (By the way, 4–500, that’s strange. Elidibus said the oldest Ancient only reached something like 532. Oh, so they did have the lifespan of Viera, but the lore in FFXIV is different.)
Anyway, at some point I wanted to shake her hand.
Me: “Well, hello half-sister.”
I don’t know why I said that. Maybe because of the Viera lore I had read the night before, about their sisterhood. I think it was more about that. Because she looked at me strangely, as if I really were her half-sister, as if my father had had a Viera wife. That’s strange enough already. But apparently no, we didn’t have the same mother. She looked at me oddly.
And then the dream ended.
But I think what I meant was the sisterhood thing. My intention was more like, “okay, apparently that’s my sister from my father’s side,” but I hadn’t really thought about it when I said it. It was information that just suddenly shifted. So that was really strange. She looked at me like “huh?”
And when I wanted to shake her hand, my head was at her butt level. I’m 165 cm, and she was 3m30 tall, with really thin rabbit ears. Did she have normal ears? I actually don’t know. I think not. Or maybe yes, but then she really was a half-Viera. Anyway, she had friends who were real Viera, but they were just as tall as her.
So yeah, they say not as tall as Elezen, but I wonder if they can’t actually reach 3 meters. Maybe they could once, maybe not nowadays, but once they did. Could be.
So yeah, that was the dream. But I really need to ask Eli a few things about it.
(which I probably did, but forgot to note it down sadly).
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Okay, so that dream — it was like I could finally fly into space with my body. But not actually in space, more like: I don’t know where I was. A kind of blue, with a purple sky. And I thought: “I’m having an out-of-body experience.” But it wasn’t really that. It was just a lucid dream.
And apparently in the first part, there was a boy named Daan, who could also transform into the Phoenix. At least, I had made that happen. I had awakened those powers in him, and he practiced regularly — even without actually using fire. And at some point he was playing outside, and I sometimes also called him Joshua for some reason. Why, I don’t know.
And then I said: “I’m going to play Final Fantasy XVI for a bit.”
Him: “Why do you need that?”
Me: “Just because I like it, or something,” I said.
But the TV was standing on the computer cabinet, which was somehow smaller than usual. Anyway, I turned off the TV. Then suddenly some kind of man came in — looked like one of those inspectors who check if someone is living with you when you’re on benefits. Someone like that. But this one was searching my house for things that had to go.
The first thing he picked up was Ysayle, lying on the ground. He said: “Yeah, she has to die.” I quickly grabbed her from his hands. Then I quickly picked up Griffo from the floor, who was there too, and he said: “Yeah, that one too.” I held them tight against me. At some point they disappeared.
But then he wanted to go behind the living room cabinet. (By the way, this all took place in my dad’s old house where I grew up.) But there was no cabinet door originally behind the kitchen cupboard/cellar space. That’s where my Pokémon cards were hidden. He opened the door: “Ah, Pokémon cards, hand them over.”
Me: “Like hell I will!” And I said: “My bestie, call the police, he wants to take my Pokémon cards, they’re worth way too much!” And I think My bestie was busy calling, but in the end I threatened to throw that guy out the window.
Him: “You can’t lift me anyway.”But I knew that everyone is super light in a dream. So I picked him up and slammed his head against the window. But the glass wouldn’t break — not even after three times. Then I grabbed the sliding window — it was a double sliding one, with two different directions. Eventually I managed to open it while he wasn’t resisting. And then I threw him out the window and he was dead.
After that, Daan’s mother came along with a counselor, and they put me in some kind of little cubicle under the house, like a bunker or something, I don’t know. They said something complicated, and I said: “Okay, so you’re basically saying that because I awakened his powers, you don’t know how to deal with it, and now you’re asking me for help.”They said: “Yes.”
And just as I was explaining things, right before I wanted to say more, I briefly woke up — just for a second — and then the dream continued again.
I went out the window and flew. But Daan was still there. And then I saw that blue sky again.Me: “Oh, I’m free. I can go wherever I want.”
And then I woke up, but fell asleep again right after — really just milliseconds later or something.
And then I was sitting on the bed with Daan.Him: “Look, transforming Phoenix.”(Not actually transforming, but I thought I saw the silhouette of a little Phoenix around him.)
Daan: “And now I do fireball attack.”And he went ftftftftf with his hands really fast, you know, and ran forward.
When he imitated the Phoenix transformation, I transformed too — I think half, maybe semi-Prime. And then I wanted to fly out the window again, to be free once more.
But instead I saw someone up on a Goobue, standing on the roof, who wanted to attack us — like declaring war. So I was at the window, the same window as before. And the Goobue wanted to shoot something at us. I charged my hand with fire, though the fire wasn’t visible yet. Only when I shot it did a dark red fireball appear. Really — the red was about as red as a cherry, and then there were orange flames too. Yellow wasn’t really there, maybe a few sparks here and there.
But it was extra red. And when I shot it, it became visible. They had some object hanging from the roof that they wanted to fire at us. So I shot at that thing. I don’t know, it was some round thing made of branches, it seemed. Really flammable.
But my fireball missed — it went past the object. But I could steer it. So I guided it back, it missed again, and then suddenly from the front I hit it very fast, and the thing caught fire.
But then they grabbed a new object — two at once this time. So I shot two fireballs at the same time, steering them both. That was harder for me, but I managed. Then I had to do it again, two at the same time. And I said: “Daan, help me out with steering the second one, because this is new for me.”
I don’t know what he said, but somehow it worked he steared one and we won, I think. And then I woke up briefly again. Now I don’t know if that was the actual end, or if there was more after. I think that was the end. But that dream had already been going on for a really long time, originally. I don’t even remember the beginning anymore. But yeah, I think that was it. Quite a lot, really.
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Mar 29th
Aidenin and Jote
After a long dream filled with random stuff,someone asked an online question about Jote—a question that hinted at the real existence of the two of them.I wanted to type a full reply to that person:
Me: “I’m going to be really direct about this—they’re REAL.”I wanted to keep typing, but then I saw Aidenin and Joteto my right, just behind me, being happily in love.(In the dream it all made perfect sense,but I had never stopped to considerthat Jote might still be with him.(I’ll come back to that later.)
I tried to record them as proof for that person,but the recording just wouldn’t work.
(It turned out that Aidenin had explained to Jotethat, if truly necessary, that he had rejoin with me.But that wasn’t immediately clear in the dream.)
There were many moments where Aidenin was shirtless,and I was like 0-0Later he pulled me into it, and the three of us were together.After some things I don’t quite remember—he was shirtless again, and I got shy.Was he implying “sex”?But that turned out not to be the case—suddenly the scene shifted somewhere else.
Aidenin: “What happened to your hair?”
Me: (looks up) “Oh man, I just got out of bed.”
Then he said something
Me: honestly with another Final Fantasy character, I’d gladly stay in bed.”
Aidenin: “Shall we put you back to bed then?”Jote was completely clueless.
Jote: “Huh?”
She didn’t get the hint. But instead of continuing that path,we went out to buy Pokémon Fit plushies.And then, if I remember right, they were gone.
I was still dancing in the skyto the instrumental part of Suteki Da Ne,and once I had enough space,I slowly transformed into the Phoenix—and then I woke up.
Aidenin was still there when I woke up
He had already told Jote what he planned to do,and he said she was sad about it,but she accepted it.I could barely believe it.
Me: “I can’t imagine going through this with Eli…Are you sure she was telling the truth? Ask her.”
But instead of him asking her,she came straight to me “I felt an energy coming toward me.” I verified if it was really her— and yes, it was her.
Me: “Are you absolutely sure you’re okay with this?”
She said yes, and she understood too.
I got a massive lump in my throat.
Me: “I’m stunned. I can’t imagine this happening with me and Eli. Y’know… but thank you!”
And it took quite a while to get rid of that lump.
When I started writing down this dream,I just had to say—this was a very lovely dream,to finally see him again.
He said: “You’re welcome.”
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